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the view, Sophie said, " Katsu, you can come over if you're lonely, or you just want to talk to someone. It's your home now, too. By the way, I've already added your chip to the door's history, so you can come here anytime, even if we're not at home." I am glad that after my discharge I will not be left alone with the real world.

At 17: 36 we went to pick up her daughter, whose name is Diana. She had fun with her classmates at the trampoline center, where there is a trampoline instead of a floor on all five floors. I heard that in our city there is also an aqua center, in which the entire space is filled with water. Maybe I'll go there someday.

Outwardly, Diana does not look like her mother at all. She has dark, thick hair, brown eyes, and a lean and elongated body, unlike the plump and fair Sophie. But their character is identical.

During the festive dinner, they took turns pushing salads and sandwiches towards me. I was surrounded by care and attention, as if I was the birthday boy. Even though Diana knew my name, she always calls me "Onisan", but I still understood why.

After the meal, we decided to take a walk around the square, which, according to the princess (I decided to call Diana that), has an artificial warm pond where swans and geese swim in winter. It was nice to walk outside the hospital grounds, it seems like I haven't done this in ages, but it's actually been less than a month.

When we reached the pond with swans, Diana gave me a coin, which are rare nowadays, and said: "Onisan, let's throw them into the lake together, so that we can come back here again?" After finishing our walk around the square, we went to the hospital.

Diana demanded the address of the blog, but when she found out that I didn't have it, she forced me to register. Now she sent me the hundredth message about a hamster named Ricky who can do a somersault, and attached a video.

22:21. It's getting close to bedtime, and she's obviously not going to go to bed, so what am I supposed to do?

Day 5.

Today is Monday, January 2, 2069.

13:42. Today I had another body scan, according to the results of which my weight did not change, and psychological tests confirmed the presence of depression, so the doctor prescribed antidepressants and warned that they can cause a sharp weight gain, but this is even in our favor.

Diana will soon finish additional classes, after which she will go swimming and will be there until 18: 00, which means that I will be able to relax in the afternoon.

I didn't have to communicate with others before, and recently I have completely withdrawn from society, so talking to this little girl puts me in a stupor. In the morning, she asked, " Onisan, do you think we really exist? When I played in virtual reality, it seemed real enough to me to live in it, but if this is so, then why are people sure that they are in the real world, and not in the game? " – for the 4th hour I think about this question.

For breakfast there was oatmeal with honey and nuts, a cheese sandwich and milk, but I didn't want to eat, so I went to sleep in the ward, because at night Diana didn't go to bed until 03:13, and all this time I worked as a clown and entertained her.

For the second breakfast there was a baby puree of apples and peaches, after discharge I will eat only them.

19:47. In the end, I answered Diana's question like this: "We can feel sadness and pain, and if we were in the game, its creators would definitely not add negative emotions to make its characters happy", but she did not like my answer, in principle, as I did, but I did not find a better solution.

Day 6.

Today is Tuesday, January 3, 2069.

23:31. Ail, who had been transferred from the trauma unit because he had tried to open his wrists in the shower with the glass from the broken window to spill blood on a rose made of paper, was admitted to my room, but the nurses were quick to react and prevent it.

Ayl is 17 years old, his height is 179 cm, and his weight is 66 kg. He likes to chat and after 10 minutes of our acquaintance, he began to talk about his life, which he had a busy one, I will briefly recount everything.

Let's start with the fact that Ail is an illegitimate child (the system did not approve his parents ' application for conception), so after birth he lived in a state house under the care of a nanny until he was 4 years old. Next, the system selected suitable guardians. So Ail got into a good family, where the mother suffered from infertility and paid all the attention to the adopted son.

At school, he studied poorly and did not rise above the 5th stage, but he met older children who were engaged, as he said: "Growing "fun" plants." Six months ago, his friends were caught in this case and taken into custody, but Ail went unpunished.

He got into the hospital because he got into a fight with the guards, who did not allow him to go to the cells of the prisoners, where his girlfriend, who was detained in the case of flowers, was sitting.

Recently, she died suddenly, a laboratory examination showed that she was allergic to detergents used to clean the confining rooms. After learning this, Ail decided to commit suicide in the above-mentioned way. This is the life of my new friend.

Ail wanted me to tell him the same story, but I turned the conversation to the entertainment at the psych ward, and he didn't ask any more questions about my past.

For breakfast, we had chicken soup with dumplings, a curd casserole with dried fruit and carrot juice, and Sophie gave me yeast buns with poppy seeds and a note that said, "Love for Katsu from Diana, see you soon!" – was she going to visit me? Tomorrow is the day of the visit. It would be great to see her. I ate breakfast and all the buns, then went to therapy. I think the antidepressants have given me an appetite.

The second breakfast was a milkshake with blackberries, which I also drank completely. The snack consisted of vegetable salad and compote, and the lunch consisted of soup with mushrooms, potato stew and peach juice. After eating all this, I definitely gained 5 kilograms.

I thanked Diana for the buns, and she said, "Onisan, if you pick me up from school and walk me home after I'm discharged, I'll make them every day," slyly. She is already asleep, so I can safely keep a diary, I think this is already becoming my habit.

Ail was signed to the basketball team. Next week we have to have competitions, so all the teams are working even harder. Because of this, I felt bad at the last training session.

Day 7.

Today is Thursday, January 5, 2069.

12: 37. Yesterday was such a busy day that I did not have the strength to make notes. I will briefly recount everything now:

That night, Ail woke me up and suggested that I take a little walk, but I sent him to get some sleeping pills.

Yesterday for breakfast we were given a stew of beans and chicken breast, pancakes with cottage cheese and cocoa, which I did not like, so I asked for tea.

In the morning, Ail's friends came to visit, and he walked with them until lunch. Sophie went to the main building to do her monthly report, and Diana stayed with me. I still don't understand how you can leave your child with a person who is being treated in a psychiatric department, but this is not about that.

After lunch, I took Diana for a walk around the hospital and gave her a quick tour of my temporary residence. She really liked the living area, where there is an aquarium, and an art area where you can draw on the walls. We spent more than an hour there, then returned to the department.

We met Ail, and he took the princess away from me to show her tricks with cards and flowers. Then Diana began to tell him her fairy tales and tall tales, so I was able to rest in peace for a quiet hour. They talked so casually, as if they were --">